The Little Things

 


I've written how challenging these last few weeks have been and they aren't going to get any easier in the near future. The only thing to do is to keep moving forward. 

The last few mornings, my alarm clock has consisted of my two little nuggets having full on conversations with each other. It is the BEST sound in the world and the best sound to wake up to. I realized as I was getting out of bed that I can pick how I am going to react to this day. I will be working all day and watching the two nuggets. I can either be upset, frustrated, anxious and irritated or I can choose to let the day come as it may and do the best I can. 

After I got each girl out of their beds and placed them down to change them, I was greeted with the biggest smiles and the most beautiful "Good morning" babbles. This is my life, in this moment, this is what it is, and it is perfect. My husband made coffee for me this morning, the girls are happy and healthy, and I am lucky enough to be their mama. Today, was going to be a long day, but a good day. That is my mentality for today. It is going to be challenging to juggle everything, but it will all work out because it always does. 

In the past few weeks, I have noticed the smiles and the babbles but that is all. I have just noticed, not really absorbed it. One day I know that I will wake up to arguing instead of baby talk conversations. I know that I will get met with a scowl at times and not a bright little smile that makes your heart melt. These are the moments that I need to be present too. Not "How am I going to juggle work and the girls?" Not, "How will I get this assessment done or will this client respond to my individual session?" Those moments come and go and what is the most important right now in life is something that time will eventually steal from me. Assessments come, clients come and go but I only get a handful of moments to be present with these little ones. 

So, this is how my morning started and guess what? My assessment went great this morning, I wasn't anxious, and it all worked out. So, from now on, I will soak up whatever snuggles I can, have conversations I don't understand and make my girls smile at every opportunity, and being grateful to have the opportunity to watch them grow and change. 





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