What Do I Have?

 


So, the struggle is real. When I saw this quote, I thought it was fitting for what is currently happening within our little household. We don't have a whole lot but we have more than most and being able to maneuver and utilize what we do have is the lesson learned from this weekend. 

There is always the ability to start moving up from where you are. Want more money? Start saving or get a second job; Want to be healthy? Focus on eating better and moving more. We've had some shifts these last couple weeks that have changed my work schedule, gained some insights into what we can and cannot do, etc. The bottom line is, this is where we are at, so what do we need to do to get to where we want to be? I can sit and dwell on "Well I wish I had that, or I wish that was mine" but obviously doesn't do any good. 

Slowing everything down and really rebooting is the best way to see what needs to start shifting towards achieving what we want. If I have to work from home for a while to save money, then I will do it. If I need to cut back on some things so I can spend more time on self-care, then that is what I will do. I am blessed to at least have the ability to work from home if I need, to ask my husband to take the girls for an hour, etc. That is what I have and that is what I have to work with. Is it ideal? Not always. Is it always what I want? No. But I always have options. 

One thing that I was told over and over again in the NICU was "This will get better. This is just a season and it doesn't last forever." I really need to remember this because one day I will look back at this and laugh and it'll be just a memory. 


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